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  • Monthly Archives: June 2020

    • Go Fourth

      Posted at 5:02 pm by kayewer, on June 27, 2020

      Next Saturday is supposed to be Independence Day, but somehow we seem more enslaved than ever this 224th birthday. Not only are we dealing with a 100-year disease, but society has put its foot down on the issue of black oppression, and this time they’re wearing heavy jack boots.

      The oppression reckoning has been a long time coming, but I’m not sure how it will affect the future of our country. Our origins, at least how we had it in school, were based upon the acquisition of laborers who received little or no wages and low quality food and board in exchange for building part of the country (the South) for rich land barons. History, as it was taught to us, says that European traders brought sturdy Africans over and sold them to be used as field hands and builders. I don’t know why the traders could not have made offers of employment in the new world to them, rather than chain them up and forcibly sell them as chattel, but that was apparently how it was done back then. Who knows what the South would’ve looked like if nobody worked on anything, but since we have apparently been lied to all these years about our history, how can one discuss such things and really be sure we know what we’re talking about? I’m probably wrong, too, but I’m willing to put out there what I remember. It never seemed right to me, as a child, to make somebody into somebody else’s prisoner.

      The whole truth is hidden somewhere, and in order to settle everything down, we will probably have to sort it all out and decide where that is, and whose story we shall rely upon to reprogram our thinking on the issue.

      We are also dealing with a lot of name changes. Anybody who has used the “n word” or was known historically to have owned a slave, or was a major public figure in a time at which nothing was done about discrimination or oppression, is being publicly shunned, and statues erected to tell their story–selective though it may be–torn down with shouts of vengeful disdain. School buildings will be renamed, along with talks of a new name for New York City’s famous Columbus Boulevard, since he overtook the natives when discovering this plot of dirt for us. Even the famous Mount Rushmore is in discussion to change it and remove or add new faces. It’s enough to make one’s head spin.

      Folks, history happened one way and one way only. We should never have lied about it, nor ignored it or covered it up. In the past few weeks I have heard so many new tales (one doozie said George Washington’s supposed wooden teeth were actually stolen from the mouths of slaves), we will destroy our sense of selves as surely as if we were brainwashed by pros.

      Actually, it looks like we’ve already been brainwashed by pros who had free reign to pick and choose what to tell children about our nation’s history. At least we were not programmed to deify a public figure without question. But are we America, or not?

      The festivities on the Fourth of July will be televised fireworks from previous events, since we cannot gather to watch any spectacle in groups for fear of getting sick. Maybe this is what we have truly earned: a mirthless, silent day for reflection on what we have allowed ourselves to become, and what we may be doomed to be forever unless we act now.

      There are no lowly people, so there are no lowly jobs, and thus there should be no lowly pay, and qualifications should be the measure of eligibility for a job, not what the applicant looks like. Education should not be one type for this group and another lesser version for that group, and it cannot be rewritten to make anybody look perfect or rock-bottom terrible; you must tell the whole story. Facts are called for. That is the measure of any human being: their successes and failures together. Don’t tear the statues down: make the signage bigger and tell the good story and the bad. That way you don’t have to rename places or lie about anything.

      Another good thing about telling the whole story: many of our young people are struggling with self-worth issues, and they cannot see what their contributions will be in this world. Our ability to face our failures and learn by them are what we should promote for young people, so they can understand that not everything they do will be great, but they have the potential to be a great part of what this country needs. Good, honest, humanity.

      The country was built on how we erred and tried again, and again. That is what makes a good human race.

      Maybe we’ll look better for our 225th birthday.

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    • The Lack of Sleep of Reason

      Posted at 6:01 pm by kayewer, on June 20, 2020

      I haven’t been able to sleep so well lately. When you wake up at 4:30 in the morning and realize you’re still lying in bed like a zombie when the local paper arrives outside at 5:45, you know it’s a problem.

      The isolation issue really just started to kick in for me in the past couple of weeks. That’s because I have a pretty definite return to work date and my sixty projects are still in limbo. I have a pile of stuff to go through, plants to re-pot and a front yard needing tending to. On the other hand, I have managed to perfect my chocolate cake and have started working on vanilla, plus I have a great banana bread recipe to go to in a bind.

      I hope binds don’t come up any time soon, because I already shared the banana bread with my neighbors, and I don’t want to bore them with more.

      I also broke down and finally bought a microwave. It’s a 1000-watt behemoth taking up prime kitchen space, but it will help me once I begin my commute again. The frozen dinners don’t cook the same in a microwave as in a regular oven, but I have found it’s okay to sacrifice a soggy Hungry Man brownie if I manage to nab Mister Softee instead. I’ve yet to do a bag of popcorn, but I suppose that is part of the new microwave initiation process, so I’ll have to make a note to do that. Also need to remember where the popcorn aisle is.

      In the past week I also got two new doormats, and consigned the old front doormat to the side door. The problem with doormats is not realizing how much gunk collects under them when you lift them up. The dust from that task, along with the time I took to fix a storm window and encountered more dust, got my allergies acted up something terrible. No matter what direction I swept in, the dust came back to get me. That’s what I get for trying to change something.

      Meanwhile, the act of tidying up is troublesome, because no places are accepting plastic bags, shredded paper or clothes. What does de-cluttering produce? All of those. So now I have piles of organized stuff I can’t do anything with, probably until it’s time to return to work, at which time the places accepting these won’t be open outside normal work hours.

      Last week I managed a Zoom style meeting with the supervisors, managers and senior staff at the office, but I realized to my horror that I had the only room in the group painted in a color other than white or beige. That was depressing: I’m out of date.

      Maybe that’s why I can’t sleep: I need a makeover. I need to finish my projects and then re-paint a room.

      I’ll just pop a melatonin.

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    • Treasures

      Posted at 4:58 pm by kayewer, on June 13, 2020

      Two steering wheel covers, that I had forgotten about buying, showed up in a pile of stuff I had to move the other day. I also discovered a bathroom mat set that I didn’t forget about buying, but I suppose my mother or father did; it was still in its department store bag.

      Yes, I entered the forgotten pile of stuff portion of my staying at home. It ain’t pretty, but it had to be done.

      An old sofa went out of the living room this past week, so I needed to bring the smaller love seat in to take its place. After a couple days of having an empty space waiting for the replacement, I could not stand it any longer. This meant clearing up some things which had gone forgotten in another room, where the love seat was. That is how I found the steering wheel covers and bath mat set, along with some cassette tapes I had been looking for and thought were possibly in the attic, a sweater I had misplaced, and a pile of shoes that never made it to the charity bin.

      Hey, it was an empty flat space, so of course it filled up.

      Once I cleared the love seat, I had to move it down two flights of stairs. I did have an offer from my friend to help me with this venture, but I found myself in that I-may-be-middle-aged-but-I-still-got-it-in-me stage of life in which I felt compelled to explore my physical boundaries, so I chose to do it myself. Alone.

      I unscrewed the legs from under the thing and removed them after realizing the damage they could do by scraping the walls during the moving attempt, then removed the cushions and proceeded to slide the cumbersome thing down the stairs.

      Then I got stuck.

      For a few moments, I was pinned behind a massive love seat in the corner of the landing, and the darned thing wouldn’t budge. The headline in the local paper, dated a week later, came into my head: “Local Woman Found Dead Behind Furniture.” Fortunately, I was able to swivel it around and continue with the carnival ride.

      I probably would’ve enjoyed sitting on top of the love seat to ride down, if I could be sure I would not get bucked off at the bottom, hit the wall and suffer massive bodily harm. The task took about fifteen minutes total, and since it was my lunch hour from work, I was starting to get hungry. I decided to wait and finish the job before eating, but did stop to drink some water. It was the best water I had consumed all week.

      After the task of getting the love seat into position, I returned to the forgotten pile of stuff, which was a somewhat more organized lump, and shut the door to the room. For now. More days for organizing are coming, and I was exhausted.

      And I took the steering wheel covers with me.

      As for the mats, I followed up by mopping the bathroom floor, and the new items now grace the space. Better late than not at all.

      The rest of the stuff isn’t going anywhere, but who knows what will turn up when I get started sorting through it. There is probably more to discover in that discarded mess than I can imagine. And I have a clean love seat waiting for me to take a nap when my task is completed.

      I may be middle aged, but I still have a nap in me.

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    • Surely Shorn

      Posted at 5:19 pm by kayewer, on June 6, 2020

      My hairdresser texted me to say that restrictions on salons will be lifted later this month. She is ready for filling up her book with appointments, and I am so ready to see her again. I know that many people have been forced to wait since March for a hair appointment after the pandemic shut down non-essential personal care. My hair was in need of an appointment long before March, but I kept moving it down my list of Things to Do because other things needed my attention more. I normally work in a cubicle, after all, in a corner away from the passing crowd, and at home I sit in front of the same computer, and only see people in Zoom meetings, so over these endless weeks I comforted myself with the fact that nobody saw that I looked like Mrs. Rip Van Winkle.

      Maybe that’s not a good comparison. It was he who slept for twenty years to escape his wife, and rocked an impressive hairdo and beard. She probably kept her coif in check, and rejoiced at not having to deal with hubby’s complaints about having to go get a shampoo and set.

      Also, I don’t have the facial hair issue.

      For some people, regular hair care by a pro is essential. Have you seen how we look in public lately? I’m certain my hair is now about fifteen inches long, and I know it’s thick enough to replace a scarf in cold weather. We had an extended visit from Old Man Winter, who definitely overstayed his welcome this year. I didn’t have a cold neck, so there’s your proof.

      I’ve noticed that men with beards, like Mr. Van Winkle, either look supremely handsome or like a prehistoric movie extra who has been told not to alter his appearance. At least we women can do things with our hair if circumstances prevent a trim. However, most of us have gotten antsy over these three months and are anxious to hand ourselves over to the pros. You know, the ones wielding sharp scissors and razors, and mixing up chemicals to dab onto our scalps.

      Why do we trust our stylists with scissors and razors? Because we all know what happens when we try to do our own hair. Dozens of styling fails are all over social media, and CBS television even made an at-home special about it. Locally, CBS reporter Ukee Washington on Channel 3 is doing a beard, and he looks swell. I wonder if men get nervous when their pro barbers strop the razors to shave off that facial hair?

      I let my hair grow as it wishes. It’s got a bit of a wave, isn’t too unruly and doesn’t look bad in it’s natural color. On the other hand, sleeping on it can be bothersome. It’s long enough to leave a lump behind my neck on the pillow, and it doesn’t want to stay put with pins or clips.

      How short I will cut it, I don’t know, but I won’t need a razor. I’ll leave it to my pro to put her scissors to work. I trust her, and I miss her. A good cut will begin the process of getting back to normal.

      One snip at a time.

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